Lately, my son and I have been having some issues with him wetting the bed. It’s so annoying sometimes because he’s potty trained and he knows to go to the bathroom when he needs to go. For some reason though, I just can’t seem to get him to wake up and go to the restroom. I’m so tired of buying pull ups for this little grown boy lol. It’s messing with my funds. It’s like $10 a month…that’s $120 a year I could be saving if he would just get it!!
So one night, I had forgot to buy some more pull ups, and I didn’t feel like going to Wal-Mart because I absolutely HATE Wal-Mart! Their store is WAY too big and WAY to under- staffed! Lol So I just let Cameron sleep in his big boy underwear that night. I explained to him that we go to the potty when we need to go, and he nodded and agreed. My PLAN was to just wake up in the night a couple of times and get him to go the bathroom, but I slept through one of the alarms. What do you know…we both wake up in wet sheets! That I just washed by the way.
I was so angry for the moment. I really didn’t even want to say anything to Cameron for a little bit so I could calm down. He could sense that I was upset and started crying as he was following me to the bathroom to get him cleaned up. I didn’t say much to him. I took off his wet clothes, and washed him down. He was still crying because he felt the disappointment. Then something just told me to swoop up my baby and just hold him, and that’s what I did. I wrapped him up in a towel, picked him up like he was my newborn again, and I just held him.
We rocked away. He was soothed, calmed and comfortable in his momma’s arms, and I just cried. The Holy Spirit started speaking to me about what was going on in that moment…“This is what God does for you, Jaleccia. This is exactly how He is holding you, and comforting you.” I grabbed Cameron just a little bit tighter after hearing that.
Have you ever had to deal with a struggle that you just couldn’t shake? Those certain acts you do that just make you feel super icky on the inside. Ugh, I know I have. You were probably thinking:
God, I’m really trying, but I can’t stop fornicating with this man…I can’t beat this addiction to pornography…I can’t get my anger issues under control…I know you’re so disappointed in me. I’m so sorry.
Or you could be like me sometimes, where I don’t even talk to God at all. I just think to myself…Jaleccia, you did it again. No point in saying you’re sorry when you clearly aren’t right?
Man the struggle is real!!
Let me first say, I am really working on capturing my thoughts and bringing them into subjection to the word of God. Thinking that you can’t talk to God just because you messed up for the 100th time….that is a lie from the pit of HELL, and that’s what I believe God was showing me in that moment.
The bible says, “18 And I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. I want to do what is right, but I can’t. 19 I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway. 20 But if I do what I don’t want to do, I am not really the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.
HOLD UP….is this scripture speaking to anyone else but me? No? Just me? Ok then lol carry on..
21 I have discovered this principle of life—that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong. 22 I love God’s law with all my heart. 23 But there is another powere within me that is at war with my mind. This power makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me. 24 Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death? “
How in the world do I get this right?!
Solution: “25 Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord. So you see how it is: In my mind I really want to obey God’s law, but because of my sinful nature I am a slave to sin.” -Romans 7:18-25
So all I need is Jesus and I can finally be free from the crap that is keeping me bound? Sounds so simple huh?
Listen, GOD IS NOT MAD AT YOU!!! You can do it a million times (that doesn’t mean do it) and He will still love you unconditionally. I cannot stop loving my child. Even though He is too grown to be peeing in my bed, nothing changes who he is to me. He’s still my baby, and I’m still his momma. You’re still God’s precious child, and He’s still your amazing Father.
38And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,p neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. 39No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.
It may seem like you will never stop doing what you’re doing. You may feel like a hopeless cause that God should just give up on, but let me encourage you today!! You are MORE THAN A CONQUEROR through Christ Jesus! THROUGH Christ Jesus, not on your own accord. Stop worrying and surrender yourself over to Jesus completely. He’ll work on you. He’ll change you. You’ll eventually grow out of it if you’re in Christ. My son won’t be peeing in the bed all of his life (Lord say the same lol or we may have some issues getting him a wife smh lol). He’s going to mature and start doing what he needs to do because it’s in him to do it!